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The smugness (i read and worshiped Ben Goldacre for his excellent books on bad pharma and science) .. this i wouldn't even wipe my bum with....but how smug they can be having it centre stage...my Waterstones last week
I shall be assertively approaching the above named to be part... shock horror.
listen to the recordings at the bottom - sorry a long listen, but if you care bout that pandemic.. so many dying by their own 'recreational' hand....I doubt few have as genuine a take on the thing that is the grown up one and not some tangent of the faux victimised
27 Mar 2022
This is not controversial.
It is not controversy.
Anyone with children and anyone with someone dear to them who just may be tempted into any compulsive use of any dangerous substance should take a lot of note of this page. Help me if you can. Attempting to persuade some organisation to financially back a project we an call 'lobbying'. Anyone can be part of the lobby.
Controversy is cheap clicks. Raising children, then having anything useful to share with them into their adulthood is always aside cheap fixes. Cheap clicks. Expensive lawsuits.
One shows precisely how lacking in any common sense everyone has become. Especially the latter-day all knowing witch hunters. Clearly they don't have children or know how to actually love them if they do.
Today a Foo Fighter died. According to the news with ten or more trace toxins in his blood. Likely some recreationally used. Apparently he had long tried to stay off them. A compulsion.
I am someone who had such compulsions off and on for a decade from my 16th year. Fortunately only for short periods, but they were nevertheless the real thing. Knife edge if i would stop. I know what that abyss looks like.
For years in 'short cut language' I call myself a 'puritan'. I am. One and a half organic tobacco roll ups a day - a hangover from weeks on end of exasperation...one has to resort to something...sometimes... ... two or three times a year a pint or two of beer. Once or twice a decade half a dozen such that I get squiffy. (this is important only in that 'recovery' is so misunderstood - but that's a few pages for anther day).
I don't believe in the word 'recovery' or 'recovered'. They are cage words.
I became quite by happenstance a different person. The 'person' is always almost only a cultural construct. (off you bugger with your 'heredity' - i read deeply into the philosophy of science especially genetics from the mid 00s and continue to this day. It is far far far more complex than "the gene for.." indeed that may well be one of the most damaging phrases ever uttered. The aspects of existence that matter perhaps even more than simply physical 'disability, being they affect so many more of us humans - mind body interaction, are really really hard to even try to prove experimentally. And perverted by so much trite bad thinking. From decades ago.
My mind, with probable concomitant physical change ('biochemical' in shortcut language) in concert, changed. This happened over a short period of time due the simplest change. I became close to some young children. I had real purpose that was not myself (and thoughts of myself - they go...oh what a relief!); and i had physical closeness of the best kind - no angles, just cuddly things liked a cuddle and even a rough and tumble at times. I say to myself often still those initial few weeks in that new unsought and completely unexpected life literally tweaked my DNA. Which is the exact opposite of what one would attempt to convey. because it was only a mind shift. A complete personality reboot as something else. My life is before that few weeks, and after. Still. The 'after' I know will last until the moment i die. I have never had any compulsion to anything since, except not yet giving up my enjoyed puff or ten a day. Thus, that is not 'recovery' it is far more how some healthier psychological blueprint within always was, and i was able to access it unconsciously. By inadvertently ceasing to be 'me'. Becoming who i should have been if psychologically more 'healthy'.
And thus in short to 'blame' any outside force, person, or corporation or political action for any compulsion, i have known for the 30 years since those few weeks, is absurd. Is infantilising society. I don't care about 'society' i do worry for the very few in it I love that their society has simply lost all common sense and if they or anyone they love falls foul of dangerous compulsion they will be hearing the worst kinds of messaging about the ONLY way to become new: To find again that lost inner blueprint. If i did it, anyone can. And i didn't even have to 'do' anything. Except have the best fun i have ever had in my life a few years.
I have of course over the years since as a 'right thinking person' had many a serious thoughtful discussion and debate with contemporaries on this subject. I never hear the answer. I hear many complicated takes. They just take. Take from the answer.
There are two simplest answers, though the first is a long hard haul. I don't like the society of 'individualism' but in this instance only the individual can gradually accept and by accepting start some first stage, the hard initial stage they somehow need of abstinence at least most of the time and healthier patterns in ordinary life such as sleep, eating, outdoor exercise etc.. The second answer is letting go into something that is completely and utterly 'not you'. To let go into some 'program' or even religion or other 'solution' off a menu, doesn't really work. Perhaps it substitutes a temporary alternative blueprint. But there was only ever one - that which was us. Letting go into something that is not on your personal menu of what you need, does work. Assuming it works out eventually to provide some satisfaction - a purpose pursued. If it is a 'good' one i guess all the better.
Anyway that is all ten pages to fully describe. I could. But am busy just now.
I do not ever believe in cheap gestures or even public reparation. Shallow..... and will always have critics or just people making jokes about such acts. I only believe in doing what has the best chance of a real solution in improving some not so good past scenario. I am a puritan. More than that i genuinely pity anyone who does not know as i have for 33 years that 99 days out of 100 waking up early with a clear head mind sharp as a razor is the greatest gift in existence. Blaming Sackler or Purdue for those who do not have my most celebrated aspect to my life, is absurd in the extreme.
45 years ago as lefty wanna be intellectual types my humble contemporaries at school, and in the local pub (underage), we all knew then that big corporations were ruining society. A danger. Beware! So why on earth should it have changed?
It was not even necessary for people to have adapted to sidestep the supposed 'drug dealing' of the likes of Purdue Pharma. We knew 45 years ago there will always be dozens of 'addictive' substances which one could abuse that nay cause harm or death. That hasn't changed either. The solution can only ever be within. Or at least in that part of 'within' that creates 'outlook'. And the kind of outlook that is real - you feel it within.
The Sackler Family and Purdue (closing?) do not need rehabilitating. It is us - once 'right thinking society' that needs curing of this utterly infantile approach i started to read of a few years ago. I happened also to be passing through Cambridge one day and went to look the famous Kettle's Yard Art Gallery...
..just as they were taking down the Sackler name from one of the exhibition rooms. https://www.philanthropy.cam.ac.uk/impact-of-giving/impact-stories/kettles-yard-looking-ahead
If my (our - it will of course be a coproduction with others far more expert than I) main film gets made i would have no problem with a five minute "sponsored by Sackler Purdue", all over the Oscar winners press release from us. Because those who think witch hunting even the number one baddie witch ever saved one child from dying of her potions, is a right fucking moron and would not be able to listen. So lets find some who can. And start again with them.
I am a puritan who for 30 years has had shifted DNA that ONLY feels nice and healthy when around kids. Only.... but i know the best side effect of having Sackler (and any other pill maker and pusher) as patron would be we may learn how to truly help young children from succumbing to their potions later on.
please listen to two things.
It will take time. Stick with me....
1 is a monologue by me i just spurted out no aforethought, except a REAL life of REAL experience behind me - i never sought by the way! I'm am ex compulsive person who never ever saw any glamour in it ever from day 1 !!
BOTH THESE FOLDERS OF AUDIO VIDEO ARE AVAILABLE ON THE OTHER PAGE FOR NOW
Then there s a 'meeting' unplanned with a woman i vaguely know who came to my area. She is a national PR expert. She works with big corporations.
See her reaction when i roll out this plot. (she had lost a very very cherished man to these things in her earlier years).
we sort of 'know' each other - no not that way, we both know we are not ion any way the other's type, but she is a friend of a friend who arrived here just as covid clicked in and i sort of supported her friend into the community.... by which i mean we lived some REAL life the three of us... crisis and the world shutting down our time keeping each other company was far more grown up than any normal charmy encounter ..we did real talk and that includes being terse and rude for BONDING purposes...
I am not normally quite so apparently rude. She knows i don't like PR....even if rather good at it.
She knows this SHOULD be...in a sane world. She also knows it is the worst ever potential bad PR in history of course. For me i mean. But that's the 'point'. 'purpose' that purpose that still today is only who i am, means no matter what anyone thinks, i know what is 'right' for the only people i care about - our children and younger adults. No matter how it makes me look. I don't care. I only care about action. We need different action as more of them died of drug abuse than ever before in 2020 and that wont have been any blip.
muse new dawn song
from Wikipedia
In March 2019, the National Portrait Gallery and the Tate galleries announced that they would not accept further donations from the family. This came after the American photographer Nan Goldin threatened to withdraw a planned retrospective of her work in the National Portrait Gallery if the gallery accepted a £1 million donation from a Sackler fund.[42][43] In June 2019, NYU Langone Medical Center announced they will no longer be accepting donations from the Sacklers, and have since changed the name of the Sackler Institute of Graduate Biomedical Sciences to the Vilcek Institute of Graduate Biomedical Sciences.[44] Later in 2019, the American Museum of Natural History, and the Solomon R. Guggenheim Museum and Metropolitan Museum of Art in New York, each announced they will not accept future donations from any Sacklers that were involved in Purdue Pharma.[45]
On July 1, 2019, Nan Goldin, an American photographer and the founder of P.A.I.N.,[46] led a small groups of protesters who unfurled a banner "Take down the Sackler name" against the backdrop of the Louvre's glass pyramid.[46][47][48][49][50] According to The New York Times, the Louvre in Paris was the first major museum to "erase its public association" with the Sackler family name. On July 16, 2019, the museum had removed the plaque at the gallery entrance about Sacklers’ donations made to the museum. Throughout the gallery, grey tape covered signs such as Sackler Wing, including signage for the Louvre's Persian and Levantine artifacts collection, which was removed on July 8 or 9. Signage for the collection had identified it as the Sackler Wing of Oriental Antiquities since 1997.[51]
IMPORTANT BIT:
MY RATIONLE ON THIS AT LENGTH
Sackler main pitch monologue audio only
https://mega.nz/folder/Lj4nRZZY#CFoue_Cv7nXdJQ2nlE0KtQ
sarah b vid and audio 18 mar
https://mega.nz/folder/P3B3yTCb#Y8i8J-i5NG7zV1LRyLFibA
we know each other...though not that way...lots of mutual support during covid first year to a stranger marooned in my region.... i helped er fix her van....
...why the rude aggressive - an act.... though unscripted or planned,..
